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Published September 13, 2012 by vfAith

Dear Masterful Redeemer,

As I read a wonderful book about Your unfailing, merciful love, one sentence hit me hard.  It made me think about my own life.  I pondered in frustration the statement and it’s application to my life.  Frustration came so easily because I thought it was the answer to finally getting something that I have envisioned for years.  I was frustrated because I didn’t think there would be an answer to this statement in my life.

The statement background:  I read a book about Ruth.  Some chapters focus on Boaz Ruth’s future husband.  At the end of each chapter in the book, the author had a small story of someone who saw themselves as Ruth.   One personal story said something along the lines of  “your Boaz comes just when you need him the most.”  That was it!  That was the statement that had me frustrated and unsure of me ever getting a Boaz.  I thought “While then my Boaz is never coming because I will never need him.  I have  God as my protector, provider, First and true Love, friend, coach, Savior, wise Counsel,  and the list will never end.  For what reason would I need a Boaz?  And since I want a man who put God first in all things, for what reason would he need me?”  I couldn’t think of why I would be needed in his life or why would he would be needed in my life.

God can You tell me how I would be needed and how I would need him?  Should I just wait until the time comes?

This world in which I live teaches me to be very independent.  I have learned that being dependent  on some else is a weakness.  It’s easier to lean on You God because no one else  knows the inner workings of our relationship.  No one else can hear my private cries and pleas.  No one else understands the ways that You make me smile.  No one else gets the secret things I do specifically because I love You because You first loved me.

I guess relationships require vulnerability, trust, and commitment.  When I am vulnerable, I don’t want to be laughed at or misunderstood; I just want to be heard and accepted.  In order to trust another, I have to feel safe around them.  It would be comforting to know someone is committed to my safety and to accepting me.  The most important part is to have that person want these things from me in return.  Accountability is another prime factor in relationships.  Will you be able to hold me accountable to God?  Will you allow me to hold you accountable to God?  Will we both keep our word?  Will we be forgiving when we don’t?

At the end of reading the book, a recurring thought stayed with me “I want to love a David but be loved by a Boaz.”  In that, God has to make me humble like Bathsheba, hard working like Ruth, and wise in the fear of the Lord like both of them.  Jesus,You got a whole lota work to do in me!!

Thank You Sweet Savior for hearing my cry and answering my questions by addressing my fears (and answering my questions according to Your word and not my flesh!).  One detail I know is true and two that make my story different:  my name is not Ruth or Bathsheba and his name  is not Boaz or David.

Love,

Your Friend and Love

Dear Father,Today

Published September 9, 2012 by vfAith

Dear Father,

Today I was over the top ubber tired.  I just wanted to sleep all day.  However, I have the wonderful responsibility of taking care of Gusto.

This morning You told me to not take my morning nap but to take care of Gusto. I didn’t listen.  Then you told me to walk Gusto and say hi to my neighbor later on.  I didn’t listen. By the time I was ready to walk Gusto, it was pouring rain!! I tried to walk him anyway and he looked at me and led me back to the house.  He was saying “I’m not pooing in this weather.”  The second I dried off Gusto, it was no longer raining.  Lord you knew I was to tired.  I just went to sleep.  When I woke up an hour and a half later.  Gusto and I went for a dry walk/run.  It was spectacular.

Later in the evening, I didn’t want to go out to pick up dinner. You and mommy prompted me so I went.  Once there I asked the server for a strawberry molt.  He gave it to me saying “We don’t have to let them know about that!”  Lord I am glad I listened to You that time I received a free, FREE! molted shake! What in this world is free?  Well with Your favor everything.

Thank You Dear!  You taught me that following You is always the better of the choices, haha

Love,

Your Love and Friend