Coming back from vacation, where I did not have to cook much at all, sweat oozed from all parts of my body back at work. I asked if anyone was hot while we were standing, rolling silverware in the steamy kitchen, and got a few agreements. Well one person responded by teaching me how to say “I am horny” in Spanish because the words are about the same as “I am hot”.
She told me to say the words to some Spanish boys, who would laugh at me and not take me serious. So I did and they looked at me strange. Then she said it and added some sexiness to it and they said “Now that I’ll take”. Then it became my goal to try to be sexy.
Well God, please forgive me! I was not bringing glory to Your name in any way during that time period. I was trying to win the approval of man according to their standards. I am not a part of this kingdom so it didn’t and will never work. I am a part of Your kingdom.
I am sexy, but that is not for my co-workers to see. The person and time will come where I can be all kinds of sexy. But now I should be all kinds of lovely. Proverbs 31:30 says “Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” I want the approval of You, oh God. Please help me to keep my wandering heart on track to finding You in all things. If You are not there, let me long to be where You are because the happiness of the wicked only lasts for a minute (Job 20:5). God I would like that lifetime joy of pleasing You.
I repent of all the words and thoughts that were entertained tonight that were not of You. I desire to be holy as You are holy. Thank You for Your unconditional love and for being full of grace. I love You too.
I have been waiting for the realization of how and when You would use me. You have used me my whole life in different situations and such. But God I want You to show me how You are using me, so that I can praise You for it and give You the glory!
Holy God, I have a friend who has been through a lot with me. She has been hurt by me many times. But each time I hurt her, she was honest with me, and You where sharpening me and making me more like You through it all. Now Lord it seems that she is the one who needs reshaping and sharpening. So God, I am raising my hand and asking You to use me as a tool to help her. The one being sharpened doesn’t always realize what is happening, doesn’t understand the pain, doesn’t want to accept the change, and doesn’t like the unfamiliar territory. She doesn’t see as You have shown me that she is being reshaped. Because she doesn’t see it, she lashes out at me because of the pain and frustrations that is caused.
Father, I forgive her for the hurt that I feel because she is lashing out on me. I forgive her for the frustration because she doesn’t see like I see. I forgive her for the harshness because I put her through the same thing for years. I forgive her for the resistance because I love her dearly. I forgive her for the rebellion because she helped me to come to this place of peace in You. I forgive her ungodliness because You are reshaping and sharpening me too!
Heavenly Hosts, guide her into the arms of the Savior. Savior, my hand is up; please call on me and use me until she is sharpened like a double edged sword.